tell it like it is

i have dreams. i've found inspiration. i have so many things i want to do, but i don't know how to get there. i want a job - one that i love doing! and it's not happening. nothing is coming my way. and so tonight i'm feeling inspired and hopeful, yet completely defeated. all at the same time. and i don't understand. i don't understand why things in my life aren't happening. okay, there's my pity party. tomorrow is a new day.