wait just a minute

I swear. I'm coming back with something fun and exciting to say! It's just a work in progress... 


Okay, nevermind. I lied. I was going to just quickly post a quote, but there's more to tell...


I started bawling on my way home from work today. I'm frustrated, worn down. Somewhere between never being willing to settle and actually settling - there's me. So, I cried because late this afternoon I was asked to go on an interview. In a college town. But a town I don't want to live in, nonetheless. Smaller than my hometown. I'm such a girl.


I know, I know, I know... You're probably thinking, "Get over it!! Jobs are scarce, you brat." It's okay. I won't judge. I'm thinking the same thing, too! 

This is more difficult than I ever thought. This waiting. That speed bump. These decisions. Those questions. This lesson. That reminder. These unknowns. Those self-doubts. But I dried my tears. And I made a decision to put my very best effort in what I want! First. 


And then I found this quote:

They's a heap more to God's will than death, disappoint-ment, and like thet. Hit's God's will for us to be good and do good, love one another, be forgivin'...folks who think God's will jest has to do with sufferin' and dyin', they done missed the whole point." - Rucker Blakeslee from Cold Sassy Tree

Something will be good, so good. And it will be because I didn't settle. It will be because there's more to God's will than disappointment and struggle. The power of His will assures me that there is good. Waiting another minute...