Wait and See

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So tonight, as I'm working on a Critical Moment Dialog (I don't know what it is, either, but I'm working on it!) I decided to listen to Brandon Heath! Some of it's very Christian-y, but it's really good. It always speaks to me. Okay, I will get to my point. I've made ALL A+'s in procrastination here at the Capstone. Just in case you were wondering.

So, tonight I've found something else that sends me to the perpetual "What is God (and what am I) doing with my life?" And I get soooooooo tired of it. And if you've been keeping up with my blog, you're probably thinking "Girl, chill out!!!! Quit asking yourself the same d*mn question!" I mean, that's what I'm telling myself. So, of course, I've found someone like the lovely Brandon Heath who is reminding himself of the things that I remind myself -- in between--asking the questions: "What is God (and what am I) doing with my life?" And here's what Brandon Heath had for me.... Patience Little Leigh Grasshopper! Okay, that's what I got out of it. But seriously, this is what he reminded me... since apparently, I need reminding a lot, a lot, a lot!

"There is hope for me yet
Because God won’t forget
All the plans he’s made for me
I have to wait and see
He’s not finished with me yet
Still wondering why I’m here
Still wrestling with my fear
But oh, He’s up to something
And the farther on I go
I’ve seen enough to know
That I’m, not here for nothing
He’s up to something"

I've come to the conclusion that the reasons I am asking the same questions are because:
1) I'm a control freak
2) The answer isn't what want. I want immediate answers. God laughed.
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3) And this one's hard to spit out... my Faith is broken. Not in the sense that I don't believe whole-heartedly that He's got something up his sleeve, really... because I know He does. It's simply because I had such BIG Faith in my own plan.

As any Southern woman would say, Bless Her. Bless me!

Let me sum this up! I've got too much time on my hands, and none at all... remember, procrastination! I've still got to let go!! Have I mentioned I'm not good at letting go? Because I'm REALLY REALLY REALLY not. Note to Self. And Brandon Heath is another example that God hasn't forgotten me and He isn't finished with me yet, just because His plans aren't my plans... yet. Questions are my worst enemy and one of the best parts of me. Bless me.

I'm going to have to Wait and See.