Note to Self:

You're not responsible for EVERYTHING you think you are-- grasp the concept ALREADY. There should be no doubt in your mind that it's normal to fly-by-the-seat-of-your-pants, after losing the dating relationship with the person with whom all those plans you made. Remember, God's got better ones! It's okay to forgive yourself! It would actually benefit you a lot, but let's be real...YOU'RE STUBBORN. You should never apologize for your stubbornness, never! No matter how hard it is, self, you've got to realize that the one girl you wish would reach out to you, she's probably not going to though. It has nothing to do with you, and everything to do with her! Grasp that, too! And self, you're going to be okay. REALLY! See how far you've come? See how you can pick yourself up off the floor now? See, self, if you let it... time can heal wounds! See how your relationship with God is growing? And self, it's okay if there's so much school work going on that you can't breathe. That's normal, sorta. But seriously, breathe!  And you know that feeling? The one that makes you think all the plans you have made the past five years are materialistic, stupid, unattainable now? Well, the majority of them, are exactly what you still want! While they may sound materialistic, they're not, really. You just want an amazing husband. And children. And a boat to spend the weekends on the water with the family you have and created. That's not materialistic. Those are your most precious desires. And I, self, would like to think God cares enough. I know He does. Because He also knows... that even though I have not proved it, yet, I believe wholeheartedly I have what it takes to face how much blood, sweat, tears, arguments, LOVE, happiness,  commitment, sacrifices, hope, assurance of God, patience, hard work, discipline, and Faith to get there. That's not stupid. And, self, while you're probably going to rationalize the HELL out of this...  you really should do something fun, exciting and even thrilling after college, and yes with a paycheck too! YOU should travel because you know that's all you've ever wanted to do! So self, stop talking and actually DO something about it. Work up the courage. Self, May 7th 2011 is a lot closer than you think. It's also far enough away, so don't lose your cool... just yet! If I could tell you ONE thing it would be, it's all okay. Stop worrying about the future, the past. Let go! Let go of the things that tie you down. Let go of tying yourself down. Stop! Remember, life's a process and every time you think it's the greatest thing, there's going to be something else. And when you think it's the worst, there's something good... there's always good! Surround yourself with friends, good ones. Work hard, tirelessly until you've finished that paper, project, test, or hurdle. And, self, when you don't meet up to your expectations, because you won't! And when others don't live up to your expectations, because they won't... remember, there's GRACE... in everything!