new years wishes

Wrote a long post on all of my "feelings" and questions. {Rolling my eyes} You know, most of the time I don't actually like feelings. Anyway, I wrote this looooong prayer to God. Telling Him that His plan is better than my own. Duh! That he has broken me. Ouch! That nothing make sense like it used to make sense. So true. That I've heard he holds me in the palm of His hand, knows my name and wants GOLD for me! I also told Him now I need Him. 

He knows, though.  All of those things. 


But all too often, I forget. How I need Him. How He's in control, how I'm not. How if I'd start getting this whole "patience" thing down pat, grace WILL come. How detrimental it is when I neglect to pray, wait, trust and BELIEVE. 


So here's the short letter. 

Hey God: I want you to know that EVERY DAY I continue to trust that this story is so much more BEAUTIFUL than it feels right now. Because You have a hand in this, no doubt. Because You say it over and over again....

Jeremiah 29:11 “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
Psalm 32:8 “I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you and watch over you.” 
Proverbs 16:9 “A man’s heart plans his way, but the Lord directs his steps.” 
Psalm 119:105 “Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.” 
Jeremiah 29:13 “And ye shall seek me, and find me, when ye shall search for me with all your heart.” 
Luke 11:9-10 “And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you. For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.”  

Amen.