i keep telling myself.

i don't have to have it all figured out. i don't have to have it all figured out. i don't have to have it all figured out. i don't have to have it all figured out. i don't have to have it all figured out. calm down. i don't have to have it all figured out. i don't have to have it all figured out.

and people keep telling me that it's okay. and that i really don't have to figure it all out.

but i'm starting to wonder if that ALL figured out means i should at least have something figured out.

BUT I DON'T.